My mind, the new business venture that’s in the works, and certainly this blog, are all creative machines with multiple interests. About fifteen years ago, a friend called me a ‘jack-of-all-trades, but Master of none’. It was the first time I heard the expression, and I thought it amusing at the time it was said, but upon further reflection, I came to see it as a slight insult.
I’ve always had diverse interests in music, what I liked to read, different craft techniques, different art mediums… I adore antique and vintage furniture and decor; but crisp, cutting edge contemporary design floats my boat, too. I’ve always thought being, or sticking to, one thing rather stifling! A characteristic of the creative mind–but certainly not a flaw. That said, many times over the years I’ve found myself apologizing for not being more focused, more goal-oriented, more “left-brained”.
This morning, I watched a public television program about a group of craftsmen and engineers in Britian who were trying to construct, from Leonardo da Vinci’s never-executed sketched designs, a catapult and a flying machine; it was fascinating. Leonardo filled sketchbooks with designs and ideas that were never executed, either due to lack of funding or lack of a patron, but often he abandoned projects or ideas so he could move on to the next great idea. Sound familiar? I don’t think anyone today would argue that Leonardo da Vinci was not a success, most would agree he was a genius. He lived just 67 years, and yet he made vast contributions in the areas of painting, architecture, music, mathematics, cartography, civil engineering, hydrodynamics, and science–obviously he mastered many trades during his relatively short lifetime. His creative curiosity was hardly a character flaw.
That program reminded me that my occasional inability to stay focused on one task, or one project, or one idea, isn’t necessarily a negative thing. Sure, I do admire those unique people I’ve met that knew at age ten exactly what they wanted to do with their lives (and did it!), while I’m still uncertain in my forties what I want to do with my life; but would I trade my adventures, my creative experiments and the people I’ve met as a result of these explorations? Probably not. (Incidentally, at age ten, my answer to the question of ‘what do you want to be when you grow up?’ was always “an Artist”)
Why do we have to define ourselves as something? Why should we pigeon-hole anyone or any thing? Anna Maria Horner had a fun Q & A with her intern, also called Anna, an undergraduate design student. AMH asked her what she hoped her life’s work would be, dream of dreams. Her answer was superb:
That’s something I struggle with on a daily basis….I’d like to be able to say at the end of my life that I have spent my days doing the things that I love, whether its photography, painting, designing or whatever, I hope I can look back on my body of work and not see it as work, but rather what I had a passion for. It might mean that I have to choose only one of those (or none of those) to make ends meet, or build a career, but as long as the bill-paying work doesn’t overshadow finding enjoyment in what I do, then I will have lived the dream.
How smart is that for a 19-year-old? I was a very mature 19-year-old, having had a lot of responsibility placed on me at an early age, but my future goals were certainly not that mature. I’m now 42, and I’m just figuring out what that smarty-pants intern stated so very eloquently.
Creative people typically have some form of attention deficit. This is commonly talked about by my art teachers at school. And creative people have a compulsive need to do something creative every day. I figured out at age 40 what I really should be doing with my life, so don't feel bad. I spent 18 years doing what was practical but always feeling like a fish out of water. Hope it helps knowing we creative people have similar feelings. I say blog about whatever you feel like; it's your blog.
I LOVE this post! It reminds me I'm not the only one! 🙂 and as one of those creative types, being driven has enriched my life up to now, and I can't wait to see where it takes me in the future (especially as I fast leave mid forties with 50 approaching at what feels like a high speed train!)
This was SUCH a great post, Doris! So this explains why even though I always want to be sewing, I spend my evenings knitting…or embroidering…or cross stitching? ADD for sure.
Yeah, I wasn't that self-aware at 19 for sure. So close to age…well, I don't actually want to see it in print…and still don't have it figured out yet.
I have always considered myself a fairly focused person. But the past few years, I feel very unfocused and jumping around a lot…in my quilting and in my profession. Maybe it's a mid-life crisis for me! But I have a lot of fun exploring all these areas! I loved your post. Just do your thing and what makes you happy. Those other people who want to criticize (whether they mean it or not) can go blow. Because you are so creative and wonderful, and you make such beautiful things! Don't ever lose sight of that creative nature!